Jade opens up about the moment she discovered her cancer was terminal
Jade Goody has revealed how she begged doctors to kill her with a pill or lethal injection the moment she was told her cancer was terminal.
She said she wanted the hospital staff to put an end to her suffering so her sons could ‘get on with their lives’.
‘I said to my doctors, “I just want to go now, just give me an injection or a tablet. Let me go and let my kids get on with their lives,”’ she told OK! Magazine.
‘I was like, “God, why would you give me two lovely kids, only to take them away again?” It was really hard to deal with.’
She added: ‘They are happy right now and I would rather they remembered me as I was when I was well, instead of them watching me deteriorate in front of them. That would really upset me.’
The reality TV star also said that she had no regrets about anything, including the race row that developed with Shilpa Shetty during her stint on Celebrity Big Brother.
‘I’m not embarrassed or ashamed of what I have done. I’ve got no grudges anymore. When you are going through something like this, there’s just no point.’
Meanwhile, Jade hasn’t lost her fighting spirit and even though doctors have told her to rest after all the excitement of her wedding, she is determined to attend her son’s christening.
The cancer-stricken star has told friends that it’s her ‘final wish‘ to see Bobby, five and Freddy, four, be christened.
Her spokesman Max Clifford said: ‘She is exhausted and has been told to rest.
‘Jade being Jade, she’s now determined to sort out the christening – she wants it sooner rather than later.
‘It’s understandable, it is important for her to have something to focus on, to occupy herself.’
According to the Daily Star, she told close friends: ‘Nothing will stop me from being there.’
‘I’m absolutely exhausted. But I’ve got to keep going for my boys. I want them to believe in Jesus and God. I want them to believe in heaven.
‘When I told them I was going to heaven, Freddie said to me: “Heaven is a bad place, it’s where people go when they die.”
‘And I said: “No, that’s not right. It’s where people who are poorly go to get better.” I’ve got just one thing left to do – to see them christened.’
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