The story behind Lady Gaga’s emotional final performance in A Star Is Born is heartbreaking

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  • 'I remember that day very unfondly.'

    A Star Is Born is undoubtedly one of the films of 2018, bagging Critics’ Choice awards and a Golden Globe earlier this month, and we’re only two ceremonies into award season.

    There’s no surprise however, with Bradley Cooper’s directional debut receiving an extremely positive reaction, from Lady Gaga and Bradley’s beautiful love story as Ally and Jackson to their writing and singing the songs live.

    In a featurette released this week, The Road to Stardom: Making A Star Is Born, Gaga, Bradley and the rest of the cast and crew reminisced about the filming experience, and one moment in particular has shaken the internet.

    Lady Gaga revealed that the final scene of A Star Is Born was just as emotional behind the scenes as it was on-camera, as she recalled being given tragic news before her final performance.

    The 32-year-old was told the news that one of her best friends and managing director of Haus of Gaga, Sonja Durham, had sadly lost her battle with stage four breast, brain and lung cancer, on the final day of filming.

    ‘I remember that day very unfondly, in a way,’ she explained of the filming of the performance of Never Love Again. ‘I actually left the set.’

    She then recalled how Bradley and the cast and crew decided to delay the shoot, but after speaking to Sonja’s husband, Gaga decided to go on, as it is what Sonja would have wanted her to do.

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    I don't know how to put a price on a friendship. I'm not even sure how you can assess the size of its meaning, only really your heart truly knows and it's too special for words. I feel two competing feelings. Firstly, that I will live everyday with more passion, more determination, more compassion and more giving than ever before. Because that's who she was, and it's what drew us to each other, and I know it's what she always wanted for me. She had this incredible way of releasing me from the anchor of my own sadness that held me back, she loved me fearlessly while I learned how to cope with fame and stay inspired no matter how scared I was. She knew all I cared about was the music. She made that ok. The other feeling I have is that of being robbed of the last 10 years of my life, friendship and career with her. Like someone took her from us, and with that taking took all the good times. I know that's not true, and I know that I have those memories forever, I'm just in shock that I will never have new ones with her. I'm in shock that I won't see her again until I pass too. I vow to be a little stronger everyday for her because that's what she would have wanted, I vow to be stronger for anyone who's lost somebody to cancer. I'm a part of that family now. I vow to be a warrior for her and be a voice for cancer patients so the world can continue to improve the dialogue and the fight. I loved her. I still love her. And I love so much her husband Andre, stepson Sante, and friends. I made them some food yesterday. I will keep cooking. Cooking my soul until it understands this. Last thing I told her, "Go find Joanne, Sonj." Somehow I think she did. @sonjad7777 #sonjadurham #grigiogirls

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    In order to get through the performance, she recalled how she asked the audience of extras for their help, explaining why the day was difficult for her.

    ‘If you could help me today, and really think of not just Sonja but how it feels to lose someone, think of her husband maybe, for me,’ she recalled telling the audience. ‘I think that energy will penetrate this room. I think she’ll hear it.’

    That’s what strength looks like.

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