The British supermodel has revealed all in an honest new interview, revealing she couldn't get out of bed for two weeks
Kate Moss has revealed all in an honest new interview, telling of how she had a nervous breakdown at 17, due to the pressure of her modelling career.
The British supermodel told Vanity Fair of going topless for one particular shoot: ‘I see a 16-year-old now, and to ask her to take her clothes off would feel really weird.
‘But they were like, ‘If you don’t do it, then we’re not going to book you again’. So I’d lock myself in the toilet and cry and then come out and do it.’
Under pressure and incredibly young, something had to give.
‘I had a nervous breakdown when I was 17 or 18, when I had to go and work with Marky Mark and Herb Ritts,’ Moss explained.
‘It didn’t feel like me at all. I felt really bad straddling this buff guy. I didn’t like it.
‘I couldn’t get out of bed for two weeks. I thought I was going to die. I went to the doctor and he said, ‘I’ll give you some Valium,’ and Francesca Sorrenti [Moss’s friend and mother of Mario Sorrenti], thank God, said, “You’re not taking that”.
She continued: ‘It was just anxiety. Nobody takes care of you mentally. There’s a massive pressure to do what you have to do.’
‘I was really little, and I was going to work with Steven Meisel. It was just really weird – a stretch limo coming to pick you up from work. I didn’t like it. But it was work and I had to do it.’
Giving a rare insight into her three-year relationship with Johnny Depp, which began in 1997, Moss told how the actor helped her deal with the pressures of her career.
‘There’s nobody that’s ever really been able to take care of me. Johnny did for a bit,’ she told the magazine.
‘I believed what he said. Like if I said, “What do I do?” – he’d tell me. And that’s what I missed when I left. I really lost that gauge of somebody I could trust.
‘Nightmare. Years and years of crying. Oh, the tears…’
Shooting down rumours of a drug addiction at the height of he ‘heroin chic’ era, Kate Moss maintains she never took the drug, adding her thin frame was down to lack of food.
‘At that time I was staying at a B&B in Milan, and you’d get home from work and there was no food. You’d get to work in the morning, there was no food.
‘Nobody took you out for lunch when I started. Carla Bruni took me out for lunch once. She was really nice. Otherwise, you don’t get fed.’
And now? ‘I don’t really go to clubs any more,’ she revealed. ‘I’m actually quite settled. Living in Highgate with my dog and my husband and daughter. I’m not a hell-raiser.’
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