‘Why is it so embarrassing to admit I feel lonely’

As the corona pandemic forces us into quarantine, it could exacerbate a silent, underlying epidemic - loneliness. Kate Wills investigates why young single women are silently suffering

As someone who normally works from home, and secretly loves nothing better than a night of cancelled plans where I can sit on the sofa, I thought I’d deal with ‘social distancing’ just fine. ‘This is in the bag!’ I told myself smugly. But one week in and I’m already deeply lonely. I miss laughing with my friends, the reassurance of my sister, the hugs from my niece and nephew. Yes  Zoom and HouseParty are great, but there’s something about IRL interaction that can’t be recreated. I wonder about the effects on our mental health this extended period of self-isolation will bring.

It was when I was newly-single at 33 and working from home, that I first experienced the deep ache of loneliness. It wasn’t a stomach-in-knots kind of anxiety, or a not-wanting-to-get-out of bed of depression. But it was desperate nevertheless.

Although we associate loneliness with the elderly in care-homes or bullied teenagers spending hours alone in their bedrooms with only the glow of their phones for company, loneliness is actually the biggest concern among millennials and self-isolation has only intensified the problem. A study from the University of Greenwich found that 86% of 25-35 year-olds reported feeling lonely. A study in 2014 by the Mental Health Foundation found that 18-24-year-olds were four times as likely to feel lonely all the time as those aged 70 and above. And this was before the Corona crisis. We are Generation Lonely, and according to the ONS, young women are the loneliest of all.

Aside from the shame of the L word (it basically feels like admitting you’re a friendless sad sack), being lonely is also really bad for your health. Brace yourself while I present the evidence. Loneliness, living alone and poor social connections are as bad for you as smoking 15 cigarettes a day and worse than obesity (Holt-Lunstad, 2010). Lonely people are more likely to suffer from dementia, heart disease and depression. (Valtorta et al, 2016) (James et al, 2011) (Cacioppo et al, 2006). Loneliness is likely to increase your risk of death by 29% (Holt-Lunstad, 2015). Good to know that loneliness doesn’t just feel terrible, it actually is terrible for you.

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Various factors in modern life are thought to be to blame, from an increase in screen time, to a decline in community, church-going and sports clubs, along with a higher number of us choosing to be single and/or living alone. Struggling with your identity can also amplify loneliness, which is why it’s so common in the LGBTQIA+ community. Research published by Cambridge University found that loneliness tends to peak at three key times in life – your late 20s, mid-50s and late 80s – spikes which coincide with particular challenges and stresses, such as moving jobs or city, getting divorced, and new motherhood.

 

For Michelle Lloyd, 33, an HR manager who blogs at You Don’t Look Depressed, her loneliness was sparked by moving to London from Manchester. ‘London can be one of the most lonely places if you don’t have a good bunch of people around you,’ she says. ‘Everyone is going about their lives and it’s very fast-moving. In the office, it’s easy to have the same conversations with the same few people and never feel like you’re connecting on a deeper level. It’s all small talk. My whole day is like that and then I go home and that’s it. It’s lonely feeling like I don’t really have real connections with people on a human level.’

Being lonely doesn’t always look like you think it does, either. Laura, 28, from Bristol, had her dream job in PR, four housemates and lots of friends, but says she still struggled with periods of loneliness. ‘I would dread going home on a Friday night because I felt the whole weekend yawning ahead of me like an empty chasm,’ she says. ‘If I made plans and someone cancelled, I’d be devastated and not want to arrange anything else for weeks. I felt like all my friends were having a better time than me. When people told me to get on dating apps, it didn’t really help because one-night stands just left me feeling even more empty.’

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In Gail Honeyman’s novel, Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine, the protagonist describes loneliness as the new cancer, ‘a shameful, embarrassing thing, brought upon yourself in some obscure way. A fearful, incurable thing, so horrifying that you dare not mention it.’ I felt similar. Having pangs of extreme loneliness felt like an embarrassing secret which revealed the failure I really was. Plus, it’s not exactly sexy chat on a Tinder date to admit that you’re there because you couldn’t bear another evening at home alone.

But it’s important to note that loneliness is not the same as being alone, which is why we can sometimes feel so content all by ourselves (accompanied only by a sheet mask and a great boxset) and also feel totally alone in a party full of people. Feeling lonely can have a negative effect on our mental health and feed into anxiety and depression. In an age dominated by social media, face to face contact with people who can provide meaningful and supportive relationships has never been more important.

The gap between the lives we think we should be living – the ones we present on social media, and what’s really going on can also make us feel disconnected and alone. It’s not surprising that research links increased social media use to more feelings of social isolation. If you were to look at my Instagram during my loneliest period, you would’ve seen a sea of sunny, smiley photos of me. The reality was that I hadn’t spoken to anyone other than a Deliveroo driver in days.

When I confided in them, most of my friends were shocked that I had felt so alone, and admitted that they were feeling lonely, too. A quick search on Instagram reveals 7.4 million posts with #lonely. Just opening up the conversation around loneliness can reduce the stigma, and instantly make us feel, well, less alone.

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3 Expert Ways To Feel Less Lonely

 

Connect

‘When you’re lonely, your body language gives people unconscious signals not to connect, even though you want to,’ says psychologist Michelle Lim. ‘When we feel socially anxious, it’s easy to look down at our phones. But instead, practice talking to strangers, offer more eye contact, open your shoulders and smile. Sign up for a new hobby, do volunteer work and make plans to see

Cocktail hour

Make a nice drink and arrange to meet friends on Zoom or other video-call apps. Although it feels strange at first, seeing a friendly face is much better than sharing WhatsApp memes.

Have a schedule

‘When you’re spending long periods at home alone, it really helps the mind to have some routine,’ says psychotherapist Hilda Burke. ‘Schedule in online workouts, a walk in the park (if possible) and time to cook a nice recipe.’

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